i love you! i love you! so much. you make me wannna fly! you make me wannna reach the sky! you're not perfect. but you're close to it. so close. i love you. and for so long. im been all lonely and down. and here you are my angel of hopes. you brighten up my life! i love you!
He's She's fought and she's fallen He's She's on her knees before she's on her feet A sinister romantic Oh, he'sshe's about to be and she's about to see
Teachin' torches to burn bright She's hanging on the cheek of night A snowy dove trooping with crows She never saw true beauty till tonight She'll take him her to the brink of deliverance Show her that much Oh, don't you know it Oh, don't you know it So heshe falls in love to feel that she's falling She'll let himher know her heart Oh, don't you know it Oh, don't you know it That's Shakespeare us in love
He's She's fought and she's fallen He's She's on her knees before she's on her feet A sinister romantic Oh, he'sshe's about to be and she's about to see
His Her bounty's boundless like the sea Her love is endless, just as deep The more she gives the more she has `Cause both of them are trulyinfinite
She'll take him her to the brink of deliverance Show her that much Oh, don't you know it Oh, don't you know it So heshe falls in love to feel that she's falling She'll let himher know her heart Oh, don't you know it Oh, don't you know it That's Shakespeare us in love She'll take him her to the brink of deliverance Show her that much Oh, don't you know it Oh, don't you know it So heshe falls in love to feel that she's falling She'll let himher know her heart Oh, don't you know it Oh, don't you know it That's Shakespeare us in love She'll take him her to the brink of deliverance Show her that much Oh, don't you know it Oh, don't you know it So heshe falls in love to feel that she's falling She'll let himher know her heart Oh, don't you know it Oh, don't you know it That's Shakespeare us in love
That's ShakespeareUs in love
My name is Serene.
Friday, April 29, 2005 - 9:18 PM
band. we had our last performance today. the last. speech day. i tot i was gonna be happy. like gonna tear off the uniform or something. and it turned out that i actually weep. dont get it. there's no point being sad now. band life, in secondary school is over. i can remember those days when all of us complained about the tight and busy and super tiring band days. i complained too much. with a blink of an eye. it's all over. a silver is not that bad. is it?
it's strange. image you. you falling in love with a total stranger. someone you havent even met before. someone you never image you will fall in love for. i have been mocking my friends for steading with someone when they havent even met before. but now. im doing it myself. she's someone really great. and talking to her. i feel so free. she seems to take away some part of her. replacing her. and that feels... wonderful. im so glad you came. im so glad i met you. im so glad... that you. my angel. had came. to take away all my pain and fears. i just wanna say.. you mean alot to me. I LOVE YOU.
My name is Serene.
Thursday, April 28, 2005 - 10:06 PM
nothing much to blog about. so yarhs. im on the way to forget you. big time. muhahaha! i love her. x))
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I LOVE YOU.
My name is Serene.
Wednesday, April 27, 2005 - 9:54 PM
edited the skin again. turned the whole thing black. and changed those scary monsters into some white ball things. ah whatever. i think i did a pretty good job for a newbie la. whatever.
paid attention in class today. passed up my english homework. teacher seems rather pleased. im tired. had science tuition just now. fainting. dying. blah blah blah.
saw you today. sitting infront of me during the morning flag ceromony. once in a while, you would turn your head back. our eyes would meet. and we would stare at one another. till i turn my head away. i couldnt look you in the eyes. i fear i might cry. we didnt speak a single word to one another for the whole of today. i can only remember that i stomped on your foot while you're talking to xy. and you shouted something like "hey!". and i just smiled and walked away. we went up to the hall. you sat at the other far end. i didnt look at you. i focus to talk to my friends, so i dont have to be bothered by you. didnt see you for the rest of today since we're dismissed from the hall. i didnt keep a look out for you. i couldnt even remember what i did. guess you wouldnt even bother about me anymore. i bet you dont even know i have a blog. or rather... i feel like im writing to myself. like a mad womad talking to herself or something. what can i say? you just dont care. you dont care like the way you use to care anymore. nights i prayed. i prayed that by the next morning, everything will be fine again. and that i will not, WILL NOT ever, ever EVER thought of you anymore. it didnt work. somehow, i felt that im pathetic. that i cant even give up on things like that. things that involve you. things about you. i care. i just care. do you know how i wish i can sleep on forever? im a failure. i cant face you. i cant face the FCUKING reality. the truth is, you're gone. long gone. i deserve it. yesh. i do. everyday, i carry my heavy footsteps to school. i dread going to school. i hate to see you. dread. dread. i remember that day. you said that you dread the new me. it hurts. i change. all for you. yesh. im more vuglar. yesh. i start to roll my eyes at people. yesh. i start to yell at teachers. yesh. im a big slacker. but do you think i give a damn? no i dont. all i want is you. that's it. is it that hard? many times i told myself, that i will forget you. yesh. i can. i will. i must. but things just keep on reminding me of you. why. why. why. why... ... ... ...
My name is Serene.
Tuesday, April 26, 2005 - 10:46 AM
had headache for the whole night. kinda remember about the past. sorta cry. or rather. weep. now i finally understand. that nags from adults are really true sometimes. how stupid can i get. if i hadnt transfer in to this dumb school cause of a friend. if only if i had study hard. i wouldnt have met you. if only if. i can turn back time. i bet i will still find ways to know you. im stubborn. time. time is given to me. and fuck. i misuse it. i take time as a joke. have i really reflect myself? have i really tot of it. im stuck in this stupid occupation. im sick of it. being the way i am now. what the heck have i been doing?! i try. to change the way i look at things. i control my temper. i dont bash people up now. i punch the metal railings and kick the wall. or i would just "arghhhh" and walk off. im changing. for what i think it's right. for not hurting you. i played less rough during games. no one seems to be limping after games due to me. ok. maybe i do still hurt people in games. but it's not like that much like before. but somehow. it backfired. and im back to square one. no. im worst than that. brusies from punching railings, sore ankles due to the kicking of walls. they're long gone. i no long expose my anger to the people around me. but hide at one corner. and gave myself a beating. my wist. with all the scars. the pain. the blood. all for you. your name. well written on it. time fade it away. but look closer. you can see the lines. what do you have to give? to take them away? what do you have to give? to make me feel what im suppose to feel. i hate thinking of you. but i cant believe it. you actually forget every part of our journey. how can you. they're far less that what you called "memories". to you, they're just nothing that you should remember. i hate you. I HATE YOU.
My name is Serene.
Monday, April 25, 2005 - 2:39 PM
IM VERY SICK! stay. stay please.
sometimes, things aint the way we want it to be. the things you that you hold within your hands, dont seems to be useful to you. but somehow, it's a diff story when you lost it.
you and i. we walk our lives together. i remember the days where we would cuddle up and hug each other tightly, like we never ever wanna let go. i remember that day, when you whispered into my ears. when you tell me, how much i mean to you. i remember that day, when i went over to your place. when no one else is around. but just me and you. our world. i remember that very day. you hug me from behind. and gave me a peck on my forehead. and you would tell me... how much you love me. you would make your special oreo chocolate for me. and you would even wake up early in the morning to make hot pancakes for me. and bring them to school. and we would sit by the brooks. it was dark. lights off. and all the light we had, are just the mood and stars of the cold early morning. you would feed me and we would sit by the brooks till the sun rises, filling the brooks with warm orange and yellow. i miss your kisses. your hugs. your fragants. your love. i hate it. i hate it. I HATE IT. that i have to be in the same geo class as you. i hate to sit way at the back of your row. i hate to see you. the love we had. was so strong. but why. why had it even have to be this way. im sorry. that i ignored your tears. i walk away when you teared. i even ran. i was rashy. pushy. i didnt really tot of what will really happen. all i want was to get out. away from your tears and cries. but in my heart. i love you. do you know. how my heart ache. to walk away? to pretend that you're not around. that you're never there, waiting for me outside my class. waiting for me to go out. waiting for me to listen to your explaination. i long to heard them. but i just dont want to face it. you scream my name. you shouted it out loud. that name. SERENE. the way you scream it. filled with tears and pain. i feel it. that's the reason why i stop. i remember it. clearly. but no matter how much i try to explain. nothing seems to work. you will never believe me. you will never understand the pain i felt that day. that day at the stair way. that day when we sat at the back of the classroom block. you gave me a heart-shaped tin. filled with sweets and hearts. and on every heart, wrote words that stain my heart with pain. how can you ever stand my pathetic attitude? i envy you. do you know i look up to you? days have past. weeks swing by. months flew. and yet, still, i cant forget you. do you know you're the only one that control my emotions? do you? you're the key to my everything. the reason why i cry during chem lesson. the reason why i gave attitude to my teachers. the reason why i scream at my friends. and the reason that i ran away from the campfire to hide in the toilet, and refuse to come out till the leaders have to come persuade me out. the reason is simple. the reason is you. you took all my everything. and i had yours. you rob my heart. and dug out my soul. you drew hearts in my life. you stamped love into me. why. why do you have to go? do i deserve nothing now? do i have to live life this way? can i not have you? you made it so easy. but listen. if it is every easy. i would have giving up on you. since thzt day i met you. since that i sat infront of you during mt lesson. since that day i gave you my favourite poster. since that day when we exchange phone numbers. since that day. that night.i admit to you. i hate you. but... i love you more.
My name is Serene.
Sunday, April 24, 2005 - 11:07 AM
IM SICK! how saddening. but anyways, who cares, yea? im bored of stupid pokemon. im only playing cause yan wanna battle with me. like what the hell? but owells. like i give a damn. ade is being stupid again. what's with the stupid font thingy? haha. i CAN read. and she keeps thinking i cant. ok. here she goes again. geesh. what the? haha. acting cute. cant stand her larhs. im tired. ah. geesh. it's sunday. why cant it be like saturday?! i haven slack enough. okie. actually, i have slacked too much? cause mt O lvl is like coming in less than one month's time? haha? and i actually know nothing? okie. im dead. somebody just slap me. hot de is crazy over some bung. and she's already "flying" now. geesh. i hope warm de is okie. poor babe. babby sms me with her house phone. im so jealous! haha. i love you! (: im cold cold cold!
cold de.
My name is Serene.
- 12:42 AM
keep it simple and short. im feeling horrible now. my tummy aches and my thoart hurts. but who cares. all i wanna say is... I LOVE MY TWOTHREE! AGNES! x)
My name is Serene.
Friday, April 22, 2005 - 11:25 PM
omfg! GO ELDDS! they got a awarding GOLD !!! well done people! done the school proud! tricia's haywired now. she's damn happy la! unfair okies. dont get to see their preformance. arghs! but owells, they DESERVE IT. they're great! x)) you rock on people!
My name is Serene.
- 10:04 PM
i love AGNES! hmmmms. another normal day in school. brought gameboy to school. played it all day long with yan. pammy commented that one day pokemon will be the "hot and in" thing, once again. what crap! (: tsk tsk. pammy. VOTE FOR PAMMY! (:* yan's tooo addicted to the game. he's like playing it thru out lessons? well, at least i listen in biology class. very attentive okies. it's just that i forget to bring my project thingie, the notes and the textbooks and that im almost dying in the last 30min of the lesson. but at least i listen right! geesh. so tired. gonna have tuition again tml. omfg. just remembered that i haven done my work. owells. do you think i even bother? okies la. i do. but im lazy. im pure tired. dumb. jx jie asked me out tml, but i told her that i will confirm with her tml cause i might be going to babyy's house. i love her so much can. i love you! x) saw xl yiyi today. i miss her! ng said she was chio can?! lik duh! she's my aunt! yan said that she was 30+ yrs old. he got nagged by me. how dare you. dun ever insult my aunt. bash you up.
yawns. kinda worried. bro's sleeping in my room. i fear his drooling. haha. joking.
tata! x))
My name is Serene.
Wednesday, April 20, 2005 - 11:21 PM
im tired. went to starbucks with yan after school. yan's treat. cant tell you how much i love my bestie(: ! hope he'll get a job soon. i mean that's his wish. reached grand's at three plus. got a sms that tuition is postponed to 4.30pm instead of 5pm. geesh. but owells. couldnt get to see pimp my ride): saddening. gonna have rehearsal for speech day again. and this time, it's full dress. like omg? wells, at least lessons end at 2pm? and there will be no maths! damn cool larhs. but im totally lazy to bring my uniform and boots to school. sicko can. blah blah. im feeling fat again. and i hope i can squeeze into my skirt. haha. damnit! (: so whatever can! weewee called me ball eight. and i asked my pl why. it's some kind of clique they made again. tsk tsk. and im number eight? geesh. haha! chatted with babby, warm de and hot de today. and it's lik a non-stop process, till mummy intruded in and start nagging. i miss babby! x)) babby's getting SIZZLING HOT. hahas. warm's WARMER. and hot's HOTTER. blah blah. i love my PL! hahas. but i love babby more. hmmmms? oh yea! saw damn louise and dolly today! aww. aint they a cute couple. saw may at north with some girls. she complained that DUNCAN ps her. how could you?! tsk tsk. anyways, it was yile's bdae ytd. HAPPY 14th !!
My name is Serene.
Sunday, April 17, 2005 - 10:41 AM
beeps.jo just smsed me. she called me an idiot early in the morning. whatever la. anyways, it's not early. what am i saying?! omfg. gonna go study with van later. wonder what to wear. geesh. so tired! asked huiting whether she wanna come along. i dunno her okies. i cant be bothered anyways. hahaa. didnt went towning ytd. how saddening. babby smsed me and ask whether im jealous that she get to take neos. fines lorhs. threaten not to take neos with me. aiyos. smack jo's face. she just woke up. what the heck larhs. what a pig. im so bored now. ah. someone just kill me pls! :)) been drinking lots of water lately. werid. the stupid habit is coming back. i will have to drink water every minute. and i just grup down 1.5L! horrible. ytd i had 3.5L. and it seems im drinking even more today. and i will dash in and out of the toilet. haha. who says water IS good for health?!
My name is Serene.
Saturday, April 16, 2005 - 2:25 PM
was supposed to go town today with agnes and the SUPER HUGE gang. but mummy was furious that i didnt study for my chinese. was sorta grounded. lik wow? i miss band. but not speech day. i hate to play stupid marching songs la. pieces of crap can. come on la. when can we play something that is like NICE?! sounds pathetic. i dun wanna leave northbrooks with music likeCROSSINGS, BANANA BOAT SONG, SONG FOR YOU and all the crap you can think of. and super no, am i gonna step down with memories of ASCENTIUM or SINGAPORE RAPSHORY. i can die! it's like those two syf pieces are stuck in my head. geesh. dying la. it's nice but then, i just crave for better pieces. geesh. shall not complain. i miss agnes. i love you! sorry for not going.