so tired. fancy complaining early in the morning. well, if you ever consider 10.56am as early. ok. enough crapping.
panda is being such a sweetie today. i simply love her. she's been appearing in my sleeps for days can. dont know what's up with me. geesh. but it's cool can. lala. bestie, i love.
went to study with rah after tuition at 8pm. we ended up drawing stuffs in my sketch book. blame rah. she wasnt paying attention to work. and it affects me. ok. i was lying. dont kill me rah. dont!
gonna fly now. bye!
My name is Serene.
Wednesday, June 22, 2005 - 2:35 PM
the things i said, they aint crap.
went to ex-ardent's bbq yesterday. it was great. haven't been going out with the clique girls for so so so long. i miss them!
rah was so adorable!
mummy's leaving for thailand for her work tomorrow. she just called bro, he was sleeping. and the way he talked to her was like really mean. i felt so bad. i bet mummy is really hurted. image your love ones, nagging at you? all she wanted was to ask us out. cause she wouldnt have anytime left as she's leaving tml morning. listening to the headphone, i couldnt hear what bro was saying to me. he was helping mummy to ask questions. she was asking us out. i couldnt hear. so i was shouting till i got really pissed by the way bro talked, i took my headphone off and shouted, "tell her to call me!". i bet that sounds mean to mummy. like as if she's being pushed around. kill me. she called, asking me whether i wanna go out with her. i was mumbling, like im sicked of her. but the truth was, tears are flooding my eyes. i couldnt pay attention. i told her that there's no where to go. and she was like going "okie..." in a really really disappointed tone. it just ripped me apart. she told me change my bedsheets and all. asked me what i need to buy. asked if i wanna have ice cream with her. she cares. she's strict. and this tends to piss me off. but it's all cause she cares. looking at the way my bro shouted at her, that rude way. i realized, that i treated her the same way as my bro. im shattered. i have been a bad girl. tearing to the screen, i grabbed tissues out of the box. wiping the tears off my face, as i picked up the phone. and typed of a message: "mummy, where do you want to go?" and within seconds, she called my back. i guess we're go have ice cream or just something simple. have a good talk, and learn more about each other.
think about it, have a family member close to you, it isn't same as having a friend, close to you.
having a best friend in the family, someone to be there for you. the one who shares the same blood as you, your family.
a bestie in the family, is as important that having a friend, outside. well, that's what i feel.
i honour mummy, cause I LOVE HER.
My name is Serene.
Monday, June 20, 2005 - 11:20 PM
never ever never;
im not bothered to write about what happened today.
read your email. felt horrible. for a moment or so, when i thought i was strong, a drop of tear rolled down my cheek. frowning, i wiped the tear off with my right arm. i shall not cry. a few seconds later, i was replying your mail. not knowing and not planning what i want to say, i poured everything out just like that. like jumping jelly beans, flying all around my room when i dropped the glass jar. watching the millions of pieces of shattered glass sparkled, i stood there in slient. eyes teary again, my mind was blank. a single drop of tear fell from the side of my eye. this time, i aint bothered to wipe it away. for i knew, more would come. so why clean up this mess, when you know more are about to pour all over your dead face? it makes no sense. no sense at all. water droplets fell, like raindrops from the heaven. i wasnt bothered. i dont care. glaring at the remains of the glass jar and the dispersed jelly beans. i cursed and sweared. then, remembering the promise i made with bestie. i stopped cursing. somehow, everything came flooding into my mind again. pain, anger, confusion. once again, im caught in this mess. this dilema. i squatted, bending over to pick the broken pieces of the jar. i wasnt paying much attention. i was listening to the voice within. more troops of tears attacked my eye. blinking violently and forcing them back, i resisted the temptation to break down. i bit my lips. pain gathered around my lower jaw. i clenched my hand into a tight fist. a shockwave of pain shot up my nerves. it was then, then i know, i was squeezing the pieces of glass, i collected. in fury, i threw the glass away. i glared at my hands. no blood. no nothing. i cant handle the fact, that im hurting people again and again. i cant handle the fact, that im being such a jerk. i cant handle the stress, that people are pressing on me. i cant handle the fact, that i aint coping. a gentle gust of wind blew against my cheeks, driving the tears inwards. it was at this point. a question bumped into my head. a soft, gentle voice whispered. WHAT CAN YOU HANDLE, SERENE? bull's eye. i cant handle anything. not studies, not anything about family or friends, not the gossips, not finance, not LOVE. moreover, not HEARTBREAKS. im a heartbreaker. stronger than a painkiller, than numbs the nervous systems of any human being, i kill. i kill instantly. this wasnt want i dreamt of. this isnt what i thought it would be. this isnt what i want. THIS ISNT ME. shaking myself awake, i turned and looked at the broken pieces of glass. this time, i didnt glare, but only did i glanced. browsing through the mess, like as if i was looking for an answer.
will i ever fall from a height, would i ever break into millions of pieces? shall i hide myself, before i shattered like the glass jar? can i run, or might i even get pierced by the bits of glass, like the way the jelly beans were?
sweet , they were. but after only one careless mistake, they're no longer edible. neglecting the warning, you swollowed this jelly beans down, it would cut your throat. they will kill you. wouldnt they?
My name is Serene.
Sunday, June 19, 2005 - 4:02 PM
im blogging now.
:D
done!
My name is Serene.
Tuesday, June 14, 2005 - 11:01 PM
CRAMPS ATTACK!
I LOVE MY LITTLE LESBIAN IMP. THE GREAT WEE. RACHAEL WEE HUAY MIN! SHE'S SO ADORABLE. SO CUTE. SO CUBBY. SO SO SO KE AI ! SHE'S ANTI CHEENA, SHE'S THE HOTTEST PIGEON EVER! SHE'S THE GREAT, THE WONDERER, THE QUEEN, THE ONE AND ONLY, RACHAEL WEE! -claps hands- WE KNOW WE LOVE HER. WE KNOW SHE TOTALLY ROCKS OUR LIFE. ROCK IT LIKE IT'S HOT, ROCK OUR SOCKS! RACH RACH RACH! HOORAY! okie. you like that wee? geesh. i coaxed you. be thankfu. (:
woke up at 6am, how amazing. a fat ass like me, finally gets to wake up early for once during the holidays. and yesh, im shocked. was super tired. slept at 3am+ for certain reasons. how sad huh. energy level was totally zero. and going out with a gummy face and a pair of dragging legs. (: ate two dumplings and got sick. sat in the train and almost puked. cant take it. head was spinning round and round like nobody's business. almost fainted. ha. legs all soft and weak, head heavy and dizzy. fell asleep 3 times without even knowing it, within 20minutes. tired. TIRED. but oh wells. it was all WORTH it. so yeah. i dont mind. it was fun. ha. if you get what i mean. winks* pandapartner aint online! and slap me for that! im bored. she threw me here. how NICE of her. and yesh, in case you dont know, i was being sarcastic. hurhur! WEE WEE's complaining about me not updating my blog again in my tag. slap you la. im a busy woman. (: and yesh, you're once again FEATURED again in my post. or rather ENTRY. so you better be smiling and honoured now. or i will delete this entry. no. cancel your name out of it. haha! IM BORED. tired tired! oh! just remembered that aunt got the zoo pass thingie. damn. any kind souls wanna go to the zoo? ha. cris, the small puny pathetic harmless, or rather powerless, little monkey threatens to send me back to the zoo. NONO. please dont. im gonna be a dead monkey if you put me in the zoo. if you really have to lock me up, im bring pandapartner along! and maybe THAT OH-SO-CHEENA/BIMBOTIC PIGEON along too. or i'll rot. talk to myself 24/7. like a lunatic. ): and serene will be one sad sad sad monkey. gasps! i just admit that im a monkey? @#$%!!! just picture a monkey, pigeon and a panda in the same cage. interesting. picture perfect. (: von darling smsed me again. damn her! she got a free hair cut at toni and guy. someone please slap her can!!! some trainee needs to chop their hair for training! ha! so unfair. ha. and she commented that her hair is freaking cool and nice, blah blah. like an andro?! GEESH. you PS-er! ha. nah. i love you! (: but i hate you. how can you make honey water and strawberry with chocolate for anju and all! ): what about me!! serene?! hello?! HELLO!! haha. but i still love you. so yeah. no big deal. speaking of anju. i miss that babe. heard that she's a passive? hey, way da go von! you influenced her! im proud of you! ha! rah's talking to me now. that little brat. i love. just figured out that i love everyone. sweet huh. cant blame. IM NICE. and yesh, YOU KNOW THAT TOO. so dont deny. i dont want any of you to be living your life in denial. ha! okie. gonna fly now. needa wake that pig bestie tomorrow. loves!
<3333
My name is Serene.
Monday, June 13, 2005 - 4:15 PM
i love the monkey and the clouds. the seas and the pillows.
the random mood created and contributed by bestie. and yeah, i miss my pandapartner!
I LOVE MY RACH TOO. hurhur. she bribes me to do this again.
tuition later at 5pm. how exciting. yeah. RIGHT. bored to death. i guess. well. at least it's science. and marc's teaching. laughs. shall not speak. bye.
My name is Serene.
Saturday, June 11, 2005 - 7:48 PM
BLACK AND WHITE;
made a new skin. almost gone insane. well. it's actually easier, now that im used to it. (: im prouded of myself! i love;
bestie just came online. god. poor her. damnit stressed up. take care there, okie little sweetie? (: poor babe. you're so hardworking. that's good. but please dont push yourself too hard. ok? you're only human. you've limits too.
love love;
My name is Serene.
- 2:22 AM
getting us back to where we belong; you're near.
woke up late today. was kinda tired. oh wait. actually, it's yesterday. ha. on my handphone, and sms flooded in like nobody's business. eeleen's message brighten up my day! (: im glad that we're still friends and that you've forgiven me. and yesh, i miss you! and then, it was marc. he was sort of mad when i made him wait for me at my grands. i didnt went for my tuition. i mean, i forgot about it. was out with bestie. he messaged me saying "no worries. when's the next tuition?". im like super freaking happy! i mean at the fact that he's no longer angry. yeah. wee smsed me too! haha! sweetie! i love her la. mylittle lesbian imp! she says she loves me! and of cause, i KNOW. haha! and yesh, dardar replied me too! i miss her! :D van was being silly too! and yea! bestie messaged me too! and that really helps alot! i miss her damn lot! so with all this, i begin my day, as the HAPPY serene! hurhur.
bestie was being nice and sweet today. she came over to yishun and we met. ha. walked around northpoint for an amazing 3hours. weird. if i were to go walk in north for like 3hours with just anyone, it's gonna be a HUGE news. ha. thus, conclusion, bestie aint boring. ha!
chatting with bestie now in msn. we're talking about each other's smells. ha. crap. i miss her la! bestie bestie! i miss you. so please be honoured! (:
muhahaha. i just realized that i haven't been sleeping early this few days. cause i sorta have AN ATTRACTION to attend to. so yesh. ha. okie. nothing much to blog now.
good morning.
My name is Serene.
Thursday, June 09, 2005 - 11:26 PM
WHEN THINGS TURNED SOUR; will you turn away? or would you stay? im troubled. confused. it seems like you aint sharing your thoughts and feelings with me. and it tends to piss me. alot alot. and i have to go around like being so mean. forcing the heck out of you. asking you whether you're ok. and forcing myself to believe your answers, even though i know that they're nothing by FAKE, LIES. oh yesh. you like to keep things to yourself. you dont wanna make people going all worry for you. but am im just another "people", another stranger you meet in life? or am i your friend?! you opened your gap, and called me your bestie. and yet, i get nothing. nothing but SHIT from you. it seems like im more like you "bestie" than your bestie. snap out of it. im pissed. it's your character. but look okie, friends and i mean FRIENDS, share their thoughts and feelings. and it's not like as if i will make a big fuss about it. RIGHT?! it's not like im gonna slaughter you, or kick that frigging ass of yours. im not gonna slap you in the face. even if it's a negative comment. call me unreasonable for getting mad. i dont know, neither do i understand a single bit about you. and i have been wondering for quite a time now, since you, as a so called friend, if you dont wanna share your frigging thoughts with me, NEITHER WILL I. why should i even bother to explain the shits im thinking in my pea-sized ass brain, to someone like YOU?! cause i care. and guess what? i care the FCUKING shit of you. why should i waste all my saliva talking and talking, letting you know so much about me. when you dont even speak? when you dont even tell me anything?! how would you expect me to understand you? HOW WOULD YOU EXPECT ME TO KNOW YOU? KNOW THE WHOEVER SORT OF PERSON YOU ARE?! with a blink of an eye, one month is over. and frankly speaking, i learned nothing about you. is that what you want? is that what you expect in a so-called FRIENDSHIP?! tell you what. im the sort that shares my views with people. and i believe that time and sharing of thoughs are IMPORTANT in relationships and friendships. if you aint that sort of person, different thinking and all. i dont blame you. it's not wrong to have different thinking. BUT LOOK, DO YOU THINK I KNOW WHETHER YOU THINK THAT WAY?! NO I DONT. I KNOW NOTHING. NOTHING AT ALL. think about it okie? i dont know. if you aint bothered. why should i?
IM NOT GONNA LET SOMEONE KNOW SO MUCH ABOUT ME, MY CHARACTER, MY LIFE, MY PERSONALITY, MY DETAILS, MY EVERYTHING, WITHOUT KNOWING THAT SOMEONE, AT ALL.
gone.
My name is Serene.
- 1:33 AM
days i wonder, nights i ponder;
it's morning! a brand new day. cool huh? it's 1.35am now. geesh. am suppose to wake up tml at 9.30am. haha. i mean wake up later. (: gonna sleep soon. and the only person who's talking to me in msn ischerrie. the sucking pig. haha. oh. haha. lala. i said nothing. okie. time to sleep. before i die later. nights!
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Ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold my life just hasn't been the same oh baby no when i looked into your eyes the moment that i let you go i just broke down
baby if i ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrafice Cuz the feelin that I feel within no other manwomanwould make me feel so right its nice to smile when i get your phone call at night But i rather have you here with me,right next to me, and i miss the way you hold me tight
I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch I never thought i could ever love a manwoman so much I've gotta let you know that I think we are destiny For you I cross the world for you I'd do anything
Thats right baby Im goin crazy I need to be your lady I been thinkin lately that you and me yes we can make it just ride with me roll with me Im in love with you
Thats right baby Im goin crazy I need to be your lady I been thinkin lately that you and me yes we can make it just ride with me roll with me Im in love with you
break it down then I'll tell you what i feel from the moment that i met you its been so damn real my heart seems to skip another beat every time we speak Can't belive I feel so weak tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me and you love me im your lady I'll be around waitin for you put it down be the woman for you im fallin so deep for you crazy over you im callin callin out to you what am i gonna do? its true im frontin it's u ain't no wonder I can no longer go on without you I'd just break down, down
I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch I never thought i could ever love a manwoman so much I've gotta let you know that I think we are destiny For you I cross the world for you I'd do anything
Thats right baby Im goin crazy I need to be your lady I been thinkin lately that you and me yes we can make it just ride with me roll with me Im in love with you
Thats right baby Im goin crazy I need to be your lady I been thinkin lately that you and me yes we can make it just ride with me roll with me Im in love with you
crazy, lately, lately, Lately
My name is Serene.
Wednesday, June 08, 2005 - 10:20 PM
EGO;
vonneis crapping her ass off. can i slap you. you ass-hole. geesh. cant stand that bitch. haha. i love you la. (: chatted with hot dejust now. geesh. i guess you're right. she did changed. vulgar. hai. but oh wells. what to do. im happy for her. at least she's happy. so yea. shouldnt interrupt her life. so yea.
SO TML'S THURSDAY! the special day im waiting. was suppose to be a day out with mudpie. shopping spree! lala. cant wait? oh yesh. we're totally broke. so yea. sad huh. haha. lala. cant make it. so yea. my sweet old bestie. can i slap you? haha. to make sure you're real. haha. oh geesh. i really dont know what to buy can. like what can i buy with so so so little money? pathetic can. geesh. ): but oh wells. we'll figure out where to go and all, im sure. very sure. we aint stupid la. at least not THAT stupid. okie. if im stupid. at least i have you to think for me. my SLAVE. haha. yesh. SLAVE. (: was thinking whether i should ask that faggot ycto go. but yea. it's suppose to be a girl thing. so yea. sorry buddy. haha.
lab partner benjust called. he scared me. i didnt know it was him. scary. he told mesy sweetie asked me to call her. so i did. and yeah. beach on saturday ! (: but damn. i agreed. and then i realized that von booked me first. im mean can. geesh. im bad. gonna cut hair. yea. lala. dont know la. geesh.
I MISS PEOPLE. everyone. yea. mad me. slap me. ha.
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My name is Serene.
- 1:15 AM
some words are better left unspoken.
mudpie's really sweet! yesh. mudpie. weird. but cute la can. i dont care. chat on the phone just now. what's with the white chocolates. geesh. they're damn sweet please. i can die eating them. but oh wells. they're nice. and i love. i mean my mudpie. not the whites.
went through friendster just now. saw wee's crappy testi. wonder how's my little one doing. poor baby. no phone. arghs. i miss my horny wee! and yesh. it's 16th not 61th. why? dont ask ok. cause you know it. and i know it. so dont be stupid and ask stupid questions when you know it. (: saw hot de's testi. haha. her pics are super retarded. months already can. still havent change. ha. that wink with that stick out tongue. gosh. if you keep posting that way, all your pics will be like... ahem. nevermind. shall not say anymore. im nice la. (: you said so.
had bio today! damn fun can. sexual reproduction. shall not talk about the guys' part. boring larhs. lets skip to the girls'. NICE. just one word. and i shall repeat again. NICE. we get to see the internal part of the V. cool huh! but sadly, we cant see the guys. i guess their holes are too small. how sad. and im disgusted by the thought of it. omg. CENSORED.
i miss my mudpie! my panda! geesh. i know you need bamboo okie? i know. i know! like totally. bamboos are good for pandas. therefore, you need more bamboos. (: more of me? yesh yesh? you're my bestie! my best friend! (: ha. okie. slap me. im sitting here infront of the com, missing my bestie like hell. weird. and please, she's just my bestie. (: my sweet old bestie that i love. haha. okie. being paranoid. snap me back to the real world! someone! (:
oh yesh! i forgot! saw alvina that day at the mrt! i miss her hella lots can. my primary school bestie. she's so sweet! (: i miss her truck lots. lala. but wait. i miss my mudpie too. and im repeating it again and again. so you wouldnt complain that i forget you. (: im nice lah. what to do. haha. lala. and yesh. what's with my lala? i like it. (: so what are you gonna do? slap me? go ahead la. geesh. i love! (:
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sweetie, i stand by you. im here. dont you fear.
My name is Serene.
Sunday, June 05, 2005 - 1:41 AM
FUCK OFF CAN. JUST FUCK OFF LA. JUST WHEN I THOUGHT I WAS HAPPY AND OVERJOY, MY FUCKING MUM HAVE TO COME AND SHATTER EVERYTHING. FUCK. BIG TIME LA. AND SHE SCOLDED ME CAN. LIKE WHAT THE HECK CAN. SHE SCOLD ME CAUSE SHE DID SOMETHING WRONG?! IMAGE LA CAN. YOU TYPED A SUPER LONG BLOG, AND THEN SOMEONE JUST POP OUT AND CLOSE EVERYTHING AND MAKE YOUR FRIENDS WAIT WAIT WAIT AND WAIT, IN THE MSN. AND NOW, YOUR BESTIE, SOMEONE REALLY IMPORTANT IS IGNORING YOU. OR WHATEVER. YOU FEEL HORRIBLE. YOU WANNNA COMPLAIN BUT NO ONE IS THERE?! YOUR CLOSE FRIEND WENT INTO DEEP SHIT. AND YOU CANT HELP HER IN ANYWAY. AND YOUR MUM KEEPS NAGGING AND NAGGING. AND YOU DESPRATELY FIGHTS BACK. AND SHE THINKS SHE'S RIGHT. AND SHE KEEPS THREATENING YOU. AND YEAH. FOREVER SHE'S RIGHT. AFTER ALL, SHE'S YOUR MUM. YOU TRY TO QUARREL WITH NOT-SO-RUDE WORDS. IT FEELS HORRIBLE. AND SHE NAGS AND NAGS. SHE THREATEN TO SLAP YOU, IF YOU SAY THAT "F" WORD AGAIN. YOU ONLY SAID IT ONCE. AND YOUR BROTHER, HAD SAID IT MANY TIMES. YOU FIND IT SO UNFAIR. NO ONE BOTHERS TO SCOLD YOUR BROTHER, NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES HE SAID IT. BUT YOU? NO. ONE WORD, AND A HAND CAN JUST COME FLYING ONTO YOUR FACE. SLAP. YOU CRIED. AND YOU SCREAMED. THEY TOLD YOU THAT YOU ARE NO ONE TO BE COMPLAINING ABOUT. YOU HAVE NO RIGHTS. NO RIGHTS AT ALL. NOTHING. YOU'RE JUST SO SO SO PUNY. PATHETIC. THEY TOLD YOU NOT TO COMPARE. AND IF YOU DO, YOU'LL GET SLAP AGAIN. YOU FEEL SO UNJUST, SO UNFAIR. YOU YELLED THE WORD "UNFAIR", AND THERE YOU GO, ANOTHER SLAP IN THE FACE. WHAT CAN YOU DO? HOW WILL YOU FEEL? YOU CRY OUT LOUD. THEY DIDNT STOP. YET, THEY NAGGED MORE. IS IT FAIR?! NO. BUT YOU KNOW, ONE DAY, YOU'RE GONNA PROVE THEM ALL WRONG. ONE LITTLE FUCKING PROBLEM, THEY WILL NAG AT EVERY LITTLE THINGS YOU DID WRONG.
"YOU THINK YOU'RE SMART. AND YOU DROPPED YOUR ADD MATHS", "YOU COME ONLINE EVERYDAY, AND PLAYED GAMES. IF YOU FAIL, YOU'RE DEAD", "YOU'RE INSANE. YOU'RE STUPID. IM GOING TO SEND YOU TO GIRLS HOME IF YOU CUT YOUR HAND AGAIN.", "CHINESE IS SO EASY, YET YOU CANT GET AN 'A' FOR IT. YOU DIDNT STUDY ENOUGH."
SORRY IM NOT SMART. IM SO STUPID THAT I LISTENED TO YOU AND DIDNT WENT TO TAKE THE SUBJECTS THAT I LIKE. AND IM PATHETIC. STUPID THAT I LOST FAITH, AND DIDNT HAVE THE MORAL TO CONTINUE MY MATHS. IM SORRY THAT I STUDIED SO HARD, AND YET I FAIL. IT JUST PROVES THAT IM TOOO STUPID TO BE LIVING IN THIS WORLD. IM SORRY THAT IM INSANE THAT I HURT MYSELF AGAIN AND AGAIN. I HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO. MAYBE I DO. BUT IT JUST SO HAPPEN THAT IT AINT ANYONE FROM THE FAMILY. CAUSE YOU PEOPLE WILL SCOLD ME, AND IT WOULDNT HELP ME. AT ALL. SEND ME TO THE GIRLS HOME. IF YOU PEOPLE LOVE ME. SEND ME AWAY. IM SO DAMN SORRY THAT I CANT GET 'A' FOR CHINESE. YOU PEOPLE EXPECT ME TO GET 'A'S FOR EVERYTHING. I CANT. AND IM SORRY. CAUSE I AINT INTERESTED IN THE SUBJECTS. AND I RISK EVERYTHING FOR YOU PEOPLE.
BLAME EVERYTHING ON ME. DIDNT YOU SEE... THE REASON WHY IM LIKE THAT... THE PERSON I AM NOW... AINT ME AT ALL.
IM JUST SOMETHING YOU PEOPLE CREATED ME TO BE. I HAVE NO RIGHTS. NO NOTHING. IM JUST LIKE A NOBODY. HATE ME. HATE ME. AND HERE AM I. I WANNNA CRY. BUT... DO YOU PEOPLE CARE? OR.. DO YOU PEOPLE WANNA GIVE ME ANOTHER SET OF BEATINGS AND CURSINGS? MORE THREATENING?
IT'S OKIE. CAUSE YOU PEOPLE DID IT. I CRY. AND I WILL CRY ALONE. WITHOUT ANY OF YOU HERE. HERE WITH ME.
I HATE YOU.
My name is Serene.
Friday, June 03, 2005 - 2:13 AM
SKIN CHANGED! was going insane doing it. writing the poems and putting them into the blog like nobody's business la. and damn. i just realized it's like so late now. gonna die later during class. oh wells. (: after much thinking, i decided to put the taggy and the links back. actually i didnt want them on my blog anymore. but oh wells. haha. they're back! but not the links. have to wait. cause it's like freaking early now. so yea. do it LATER. haha. (: fly!