yanis so sweet! he sent me sms saying that i will always be his bestie no matter what. so sweet! :D LALA.
prom's coming, and i havent decide what to wear. ah gee. any ideas? bestie went mad helping me to pick and match. ah. feel so bad. :( you know what, yan and bestie, i love both of you. gee. of cause, i lovebestiemore. cause you're a girl. im kinda sexist. so ya. ahem.
O's finally over! well, for my class. everyone went mad. esp that gay,sally. :/ he was practically screaming like a mad woman. arghs. he wanted me to scream with him. but duh, of cause i dont. im well-mannered. muhahaha! :D
good luck to the rest who are still having O! just a few days more!
have to work soon. gee. still havent buy my black pants. arghs. have to go get my prom and work stuff by tml. will be working as a cashier. lousy work. but oh wells. lame me. lame job.
guess what, i kinda miss school. well, i miss band. though im always lazy to go back for practice. ha. i miss band! i miss 2ardent especially. (: i miss! i miss!
omg, i just remembered how idioticyan look when he was in lower sec. everyone changed. it was really cool. yanwas fat and ugly! when that's then. now, he's better. slimer, and better looking.. but still.. ugly. ha. :/ ok ok, not my cup of tea. he's not ugly, he thinks he's sexy.
bestie, bestie...(: cant sleep? feel like calling you now. but gee. you-know-who is home now. cant stand him. i'm like waiting for him to go sleep. how i wish i can make him go ZZZ forever. ah.. whatever.browants to play game. gee. that fellow. :P
ok. that's it. guess i might be blogging tml. I GUESS. ha.
bye!
My name is Serene.
Tuesday, November 15, 2005 - 9:28 PM
WHAT'S GOING ON AGAIN ?!
i dont wish for any of this maddness to happened. i know, it's my fault. im such an ass. but sometimes, things just happened. i dont know what to do now. im all so confused.
and you know what? for those of you who hated me:
I KNOW, I KNOW. IM A BIG JERK. IM NOTHING. IM NOTHING SPECIAL. IM AN ASS. IM THE WORLD'S MOST HORRIBLE PERSON. THE CRUEL ONE. THE MEAN ONE. A FOOL. I HURT PEOPLE. IM SUCH A RETARDED.
AND GUESS WHAT?
I KNOW! I KNOW, I KNOW, I KNOW!!! EVER SINCE IM YOUNG, I LOOKED DOWN ON MYSELF ALREADY OK. TO ME, IM JUST A SMALL FRY. USELESS AND PATHETIC. I CANT MAKE DECISIONS ON MY OWN. I PANICK DURING EXAMS. I GET ALL FREAKING TENSE UP WHEN MY TEACHERS QUESTIONED ME. ALL I CAN DO, IS TO CRY CRY CRY! HA. I CANT EVEN MAKE UP MY MIND WHETHER TO WORK OR NOT. OR RATHER, WHETHER TO GO FOR A MOVIE OR NOT.
SIMPLE THINGS ARE ALREADY A PAIN IN THE NECK FOR ME. I CANT HANDLE ALL THESE.
O LEVEL'S KILLING ME ALREADY. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY AM I DOING HERE, BLOGGING. IM SUPPOSE TO GO STUDY. LOCK MYSELF IN THE ROOM. MUG MUG MUG. IT'S TOO LATE.. TOO LATE..
MY TUITOR WAS SO UPSET WITH ME WHEN I TOLD HIM THAT IF ONLY I CAN RUN AWAY FROM THE EXAMS. IF ONLY I COULD.. BUT NO. I WOULDNT DO THAT. OR MUM WOULD GET SO DISAPPOINTED IN ME. I'VE NO ONE TO BLAME. EXCEPT FOR MYSELF.
DO YOU GET IT? DO YOU?
THERE'S SO MANY TIMES WHEN I WISH TO CRY. SO MANY TIMES WHEN I WISH I COULD JUST DISAPPEARED FROM THE SURFACE OF THE EARTH. SO MANY. IM LOW CONFIDENT. I HAVE LOW SELF-ESTEEM. I HATED MYSELF. DO YOU KNOW?
DO YOU KNOW... I CRY ALONE?
YOU DONT.
My name is Serene.
- 4:17 PM
troubles.
physics was going okie. well. i have more confidence in it that chem. :/ oh yah, i hope you're okie girl. if you even need help.. i will be there. loves.
My name is Serene.
Sunday, November 13, 2005 - 10:32 AM
HELLO.
couldnt concentrate on my physics. or rather, even since that horrible maths exam, i figured out that im so so so low in moral. couldnt bring myself to mug anymore. oh gee. so here am i, in a lan shop. renting the com and blogging. uploaded some old pictures into friendster. :D
was looking through my old pictures, last night. so funny can. i didnt know that my hair was that weird! or rather, everyone was weird! ha! i just remembered that when we're in lower sec, the fashion tread was BAGGY. and everyone was like OH SO HIP-POP! with all the hand signs. tsk.
zy was pretty cute. i kinda miss her with long hair. ha! we used to fall over each other. well, she always claimed that im the cause of it all. cause im always the one attacking her? :/ but the truth is, i did not. ok, maybe i did. it was the minimum damage. and i didnt mean it. we used to fall over tables and chairs, bending the legs of tables ( cause we landed on them ). but hey! at least zy gets to lie on me. squash me into human juice. :/
ha! and all the RUNNING AROUND THE CLASS EXCHANING KISSES. all the girls in class was practically going LESBIAN. except for maj and rah. MAJ. (:
LALA. so many stories to tell.
My name is Serene.
Friday, November 11, 2005 - 4:31 PM
what's MY problem?
had a bad day. horrible. gee. everyone claimed that maths was easy. for me, it's hard.
went out of the hall will a pathetic face. stood there under the sun and tricia,came over with christ, and hugged me. it felt good, but i dont even know why tears just rolled down my face. well, once i started, i cant stop. /:
and soon, everyone crowded around me. "oh my god! Serene! what's wrong?!", "dont worry, i find it hard too!", "dont cry, dont cry!". thanks. but you guys dont know how stupid i feel, during that period of time. i feel so, arghs. pathetic, dumb and dumb dumb dumb.
stopped crying anyway. maj even can running over to me, offerring strawberry flavour pokey. that woman. food all day. but gee, nice girl. or rather, dog. LA.
LALALLALALA.
My name is Serene.
Wednesday, November 02, 2005 - 12:54 PM
MACS.
"i hate it when kids get so excited over food. stupid." that's the quote for today. submitted by bestie.
i have no idea why she's so against kids. i mean, aint they suppose to be oh so adorable and cute? oh what the ever. i hate them too. but in case if anyone seen my entry and decides to get me sued cause you think that your child is not like how i mentioned, find bestie. she's in charged. not my problem.
im bored. arghs.
My name is Serene.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005 - 10:58 PM
I'M BACK! :D
O level's coming. oh god. totally screwed my biology and chemistry practice. physhics was rather easy though. but i was careless for one of the question. i've forgotten to write a minus sign for the negative graph. oh gee. great huh? ):
anyways, there's no point being all sad. i mean, hey, it's over. argh.
bestie came over today. mummy brough us BK! :D had been eating fast-food these whole few months. getting really fat. and i mean it. i even grew a couple of pimples. looking really horrible. but oh wells, it doesnt matter to me anyway. ha. they'll be gone. i hope.