Thursday, March 30, 2006 - 1:05 PM

gonna go out again! ha. ice skate with tracy baby and friends. that includes my favourite dog of all time, ms maj. <333all>
so im here at macs. late. was suppose to meet them at 12, but i had to pack my stuff up. gee.
so what if tml's the day?
waiting for rah to come back from nyp. :/ then we'll go over together to meet tracy and gang. and of course, ms maj. how can i ever forget you? (right, cant wait to forget you)
oh geesh! just remembered that i have to like get a pair of sandals. im broke. i guess i have to make one on my own. like with paper and glue. ha.
went to city hall yesterday, and everything came back. but hack.
candy empire! so i finally bought something from there! a bottle of jellybells. dont really like it. especially that sizzling cinnamon. rah sabo-ed me. you! ):
lala. kinda piss that i wouldnt be able to watch campus superstar on sunday! i want to see teresa sing! ah. toot!
ok. that's it. they still havent call me. doubt i'll be able to finish that maths stuff! GEE.
(: loves!

My name is Serene.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006 - 4:43 PM

am out now with maj, mui, yun and alex. suppose to be studying. finish one lesson of the mathprep. so gone. only one. ha! (:
oh wellies. i think i can manage them.
i just happened to know that alex reads my blog too. like so amazing. awww. i didnt know you care. thanks ah. (: oh ya. maj, you are such a toot. sitting infront of me. talking about waterproof uniforms. mui looks good in mjc uniform. yun ah... nice tie. :/ hahaha!
im bored. chaos.

My name is Serene.

 - 12:30 PM

maths is like so gee. im so gonna die.
people are waiting for me. am so honoured.
hahaha!
im okie.

My name is Serene.

Tuesday, March 28, 2006 - 11:09 PM

maj's acting nice again. cant stand it. she's showing me some msn emo with braces. she claimed tht it was cute. but the truth is, it's not. and even if it is, it doesnt look like you. ((: but still, maj, i lo-ve you. only for today. this min. or rather this blog. hate you then. :D
maj, you puny little thing with braces. you makan cramp jellyfish.

My name is Serene.

 - 8:54 PM

i'm strong.
so this is how my life's gonna be with a laptop. not for games of cause. i have plenty to do. many actvities are waiting for me next week. gonna go mia without my phone. ha! quiet quiet me. :))
gonna make tons of new friends in poly. and hey, maybe poly aint that bad!
oh yeah. i suck at using laptops. will get use to it soon.
holding it all back.
as i say, i cant wait for school to start! and yes! i got into french! that's like super lucky. :/ i mean i dont really like spanish. lala.
cant log in to that blackboard thing to do my maths. so gonna die.
okie. the end.
running, running as fast as i can.

My name is Serene.

 - 8:54 PM

i'm strong.
so this is how my life's gonna be with a laptop. not for games of cause. i have plenty to do. many actvities are waiting for me next week. gonna go mia without my phone. ha! quiet quiet me. :))
gonna make tons of new friends in poly. and hey, maybe poly aint that bad!
oh yeah. i suck at using laptops. will get use to it soon.
holding it all back.
as i say, i cant wait for school to start! and yes! i got into french! that's like super lucky. :/ i mean i dont really like spanish. lala.
cant log in to that blackboard thing to do my maths. so gonna die.
okie. the end.
running, running as fast as i can.

My name is Serene.

Thursday, March 23, 2006 - 10:22 AM

my hearts aches. i simply need you now but you claimed that you're busy.
everytime when those sweet memories flashed into my head, i took one step back. i dont want to lose you. you're not the only one suffering. i am too.
what have i done wrong?
after all this time, the pain starts to hit me in the heart again. you seem to be moving on. real quick again. sometimes i just wonder what am i to you. a minute you cry, the very next you smile.

i dont want anything back.

the cookies are still in the fridge. at this very moment, i think of you again. you havent reply my messages. busy.
i cant wait for my poly life to start again. hectic and all, so i will have no time to think of you. had been paitently counting down the days for school to start. CANT WAIT.

tears roll down my cheeks whenever you assumed that i dont care.

im bothering you. they're right. i want to stop calling you, stop messaging you. but the thoughts of our past pushes me back. and i wonder if you still love me. am i lying to myself again?

as i waited for your reply, all hopes die. i think you dont love me anymore.
afterall, im the one who's knocking at your door, who's pride scattered on the floor. not you.
remember that song?

and i cry alone in the dark.

i used to hate thai food,
i used to give up so easily,
till you entered my life.

bishan. birthday. cartel. crumpler. train. habourfront. yong tau foo. ice cream. frozen fruits. esplanade. tempura ice cream. cushion. massage. japanese. sakae. sushi. egg thingie. wasabi. taxi. train. red hill. me outside your school. insant cup noodles. curry and tom yam. tears. orchard mrt station. taka. share. octopus balls. dark chocolate and mint ice cream. ckp uncle. laughers. tiong. mac. lunch/dinner. MCchicken and nuggets. ikea. ted. hot dogs, ribena and some green dessert. achorpoint. toilet. me in your uniform. video. delifrance. spotted bungs. ice lemon tea. crab sandwich. chicken sandwich. exchanged in the end. too crabby taste. bought mummy a tiny book. heeren. salty noodle with milk tea. neoprints. cine. movies. couple seats. bottle of coke. popcorns. nachos with extra cheese. ear studs. mickey and diamond. far east. hunting for clothes. jacket. home. yours and mine. hiding. your dad's foot. giggles. tubby.
on and on. i dont want our memories to end. not now. never.
let our story continue.

My name is Serene.

Monday, March 20, 2006 - 12:41 PM

keeping it silent.

My name is Serene.

 - 11:55 AM

9 months 20 days.


went out with sec one and two pals on monday. it was great! maj read my blog again and was complaining about it. hey woman, at least i write about you. i love you. ha. :/ was suppose to go ice skate but then we figured out that there's too many people there squeezing in that small and pathetic piece of ice. so in the end, we went to kbox. and man, i tell you, that hippo really can sing. and that cow, even better. used the time to listen to her wang li hong, li hong. cows. sang and danced. we looked like we're drank. ha! then we sang happy birthday to tracy baby. i saw her tear! woo. mission well done. it was fun! then we met this crazy man on the train. toot. ha! i miss them! ah. and yes, maj, i miss you too. :/ im just trying to be nice here.

stayed home on sat. nothing to do. you're busy with work. so i didnt bother you.

went out with cherie and julia yesterday! to compass point. borrowed two books from the library and read them while they're doing their maths. saw rach and friend! :) ah wee ah wee ah. she cut her hair! she's no longer a pigeon, without those spiky hair. sighs. i lose a bird partner. :( but she's still the AH WEE i know. muhahaha.
went to hougang macs to have our dinner. damn small can. gee. had to stand around before we can find our seats. then came olivia! woosh! havent seen her for so long. that woman. she looked great! i like her green shirt. looks good on her. she had make-up on. so woman-like now! :) clear our misunderstanding. we're not dao and mad at each other at all. yeah.

dont go.

going to go for my medical check-up and xray later. going to ask the doctor what's wrong with my back. then after that, i have to rush over to tracy's place for her bbq. she's got a bus to send us over to the chalet. rich woman. want to stay over, but mummy dont allow. oh wellies.

i miss you. and i love you.
but do you?

My name is Serene.

Friday, March 17, 2006 - 6:23 PM

My name is Serene.

Thursday, March 16, 2006 - 1:11 PM

i waited for your sweet smses, i waited for your call.
i waited for your sweet post entry, that you said you'll post the night before.

i hate to fight
i hate to scream
but baby, i really dont mean it
i see you smile 2 days back.
heard you cry last night.
read your message, you were screaming, today.
and i start pondering aboutt tomorrow.
i tried my best to be there
i bit my lips when we fight
i controlled my temper, i know i couldnt cry.
alone and when im all alone.
tears starts dipping down my face.
i feel empty
but i know you care.
but sometimes dear, you do have to bear.

i though about killing myself just the other day
stood by the stove with a blade in my hand, i cried and screamed your name.
my phone lay silently on my bed.
i stared silently at the window fame
should i jump today?

went to the toilet and found the bleach.
or should i just drink my life away?

i dont know
i was confuse

the blade still lying in my hands.
i bit my lips and let it tear
oh tear the flesh!

then all was over, i'll lie quietly on the marble floor.
with a knife, a bottle of bleach,
and a hand on the window fame.

tears in my eyes and blood on the floor
and then that was all

i dream abt dying, but yet i cant
i dont want to lose my life like that

most of all, i dont wanna lose you.

death is a silly game.
that many had chose to play.

i juggle my love for you at the edg e of the earth
afraid to fall, but afraid to stop.

furtively, i swayed
and carefully, i moved away

i treasure you, do you know
but what if the balls fall?

i dont want to end up dead.
end up pale
fading into the background of your mind

seeing you smile it makes me glad.
and all i ever wanted was you.

My name is Serene.

 - 12:54 PM

all i wanted was -

tears rolling down my cheeks, i can hardly even breathe.
i dont bother about any other things, i just want to be busy.
i dont want to think, i just want to be happy.
in your arms, i find what i seek.
but it seems like you never did welcome me.
everything was just a dream.

you.

My name is Serene.

Wednesday, March 15, 2006 - 1:25 PM

was suppose to meet you today. but nah, it didnt happen. sighs.

cant wait for school to start. seriously, i see no point of staying at home and think too much. cause it's not worth it. so, i took out the dictionary and learned a handful of new words. ha! weird words. oh wellies, it's better than rotting.

going to cpf board later to do some stuff. i didnt know going to poly is like so mafan. all the applications and medical check-ups, contacts and everthing. it better be worth it. my future depends on it. i guess. :/

it's not about glue, it's about the time we spend and the things we do.

friends! date me out! ha.
tricia, i hope you'll be reading this post. DATE ME OUT. YOU FOOL.

went sakae yesterday. it was great. HIGHLIGHT HIGHLIGHT! saw mui and maj. baby claimed maj's pretty. what can i say? she's my dog. :D i fed her well. they ate so little and then left. :/ im glad i see them anyway. P.S. MUI, I LOVE YOU. MAJ, GET LOST. :)

will be going to jurong east on friday. gonna celebrate tracy-babe's birthday! so there it goes again, another seventeen year old. and mine's like freaking so so far away. geesh. anyway, as i was saying, we're going there to ice-skate. im bad at it. and yesh, tricia can go ahead and laugh. im the FOOL. I ROCK!

dont think i'll skating anyway, im broke. and i seriously am that bad at it.

might be going to sun tan with my old pal, yan tomorrow. ah. but sun tan at the swimming complex? gee. i hope i wouldnt be seeing him in his swimming trunks/underwear. i cant stand- you get what i mean.

im madly in love with campus superstar. adriano's so cool! teresa's not bad too! :D
BLAH.

and i love you all along.
cant you see?

My name is Serene.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006 - 9:51 AM

tadaa. changed the skin. LALA.

My name is Serene.

Monday, March 13, 2006 - 6:34 PM

My name is Serene.

Sunday, March 12, 2006 - 11:20 AM

what's wrong with you? yesterday night was ok. we ended up happy. i sent you all the sweet sms-es. you're touched. but then, today, you're back to the "RAGING HELL" you again. can we not fight? everything was fine. can you stop it? argh. i dont know what to say anymore. after seeing that display picture in your msn. i dont know. i dont.

My name is Serene.

Thursday, March 09, 2006 - 8:39 PM

WHAT THE HELL.
DELETED.
FORGET IT.
MY FAULT.

My name is Serene.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006 - 8:16 PM

poor girl. having gastric now. )): wish i can like go comfort you or something. but i cant. geesh.
i miss you. guess you're pretty busy with work now a days. you hardly talk to me on the phone, or sms me much. even when you do, it takes a long time for a reply. i dont blame you. i understand you have to do your stuff. so yeah. (((:
god. why are you online?! you're suppose to go rest or something. :/
shall stop nagging.
ah. i miss that egg-tofu thingie. so bloody hell nice. i want! ha.
oh yeah, to gwen. i dont know who you are. cause i know no one of such name. just wonder if you've seen me before or not. cause i find it rather silly if you like me just like that. who knows who you really are. and why you're tagging me like that. things may not be as simple as it seems. :/ sorry, but im complicated. very very very extremely complicated. ha.
**
ted just sms me and told me that she misses her mummy's huggies. TSK. i wonder what's her mummy doing now.
great, i sound so wrong. oh. im in love with my kids' mum. :/

After all, the broken storms That were thrown, for no good reason Inside, she's loving her still After all this time And though her heart, begs the stars No sign of healing, It's All right She's loving her still, after all this time. Ohh yeahh Trying to push the past away Still waiting for the lights to change Try, try for the sake of it Learning to barely feel the pain (cant figure out this line??) And though it's really hurting She aint breaking, breaking, breaking Coz she's loving her still, after all this time Now she knows her weakness? shows Selfish soul, never changing That's fine, because she's loving her still After all this time And to the outside eye You see you found a different girl And it all seems perfect, and that's how she wants it Coz she's loving her still, after all this time. After all this time.... After all, after all, after all this time Bones have to grow, and age it shows Though we try and hide it Inside, she's loving her still After all this time And behind her tired eyes, she sees the girl with her arms wide Who made her feel like an angel Ohh thats why she's loving her still For the rest of her life, she's loving her still For the last of many ??She's loving herstill After all this time.

i love you.

My name is Serene.

Tuesday, March 07, 2006 - 8:16 PM

i read your friendster profile. not sure who is it for. came online and you're gone. i guess you're going to eat or something.
ah. god. im damn piss with SOMEONE. you're no one to make decisions for me. so buzz off. loser. i dont want to be an immature brat. that's why i didnt go shout in your face and all. im nice. so yeah. GEE.
guess my tagboard's coming back to life again. ha. i would appreciate it if you were to put your name down. :) no offence. im not being rude either. so yeah. just saying it. i dont know what you people are up to. so who knows. geesh.
so, the poly enrollment package is here. GREAT. :/ im stuck at grand's. so i wouldnt get to read it till mummy get it for me. ah. guess i better start learning to love that course, even before it actually starts. dont wanna die half way.
i miss you. so sad can. didnt get to see you today.
oh wellies. you're online now! yippeee! (:
i love.

My name is Serene.

Friday, March 03, 2006 - 10:43 AM

My name is Serene.

Wednesday, March 01, 2006 - 1:17 PM

My name is Serene.